this is my life….

is this for real?

hey wake me up!

is this really for real? two nights to go…

tomorrow were gonna have our rehearsal for our graduation.

time is so fast,hollyweek was over and then summer is here.

and next would be another life for me. facing the real  world,

real world where i can see myself working seriously,and mature enough to find solutions when problems arise,and independent in such a way that i can stand alone by myself,earning money on my own.

finding job..?? uuuggghhhh…real world…im scared.

Wwhheeww i can’t believe that i reach this far,after all the challenges and hardships i encounter the entire years of my college life,damn! here goes graduation…. The best highlights of students and parents "graduation day".

thinking back about yesterdays: i never think that i can survive,

never believe that i can make it and

i never decided to study “Nursing”

after all i have learned to love it just the way it is.

as they say nursing is an art: so in order to survive,

just live it and make it in your own creative way.

Just follow your instincts no matter what. “charness noted.hihihi

but i am still imature and  very childish enough  to take another step in my life to move on for my career and for my better tomorrow.

thanks God for everything he has done for me.

i hate it,though.

i don’t wanna think  about it.no more class, no more duties no more classmates,dutymates,no more c.i’s,no more exams no more quizzes,no more requirements,no more sleepless nights and the most exiciting part that i’m going to miss is no more allowance(..oh…no…uugghhh…sighs) i’m out of school youth and i hate it.

i’m gonna miss student’s life.i hate it when the class is over, i hate the signing of clearance,i hate the requirements for graduation ,and I HATE GOODBYES, I want to cry when i receive my Tuga hhuhuhuhu  as i say: this is it.this is it…….another step  or stage of my life .

wwaaahhhhh…. don’t wanna think about grad……….

Oh solitudine….

my fave song: Loneliness

I don't even know if he still thinks of me
Once he got on board that unforgiving train
I imagine that he whiled away the time
Through that cold grey morning and the city rain
Thinking of somebody else who'll run to him
Who'll ask him "did you miss me?", "maybe now and then"
Laughing he'll say well, he "met this funny girl"
But "just a summer think" he won't see her again
Oh, God! I hope I'm wrong but I'm not feeling very strong
I've been so up and down, so sad, so happy, feeling good and bad
I'm young, I'm old, I laugh, I cry
I tell the truth, but that's a lie
I've been so in and out, so wild, so well behaved, so pure defiled
Oh, solitudine! That word I hate to say
And no, I was not crazy to do what we did
I even wish I'd been a bit more crazy still
And kept a little more of him to see my through
He loved me all he could, I never had my fill
And then I'm back inside my room, he knows so well
I fell again the way he moved I take it slow
I talk to him and he becomes part of me
And then I know he'll never let the summer go
Oh, God! I hope I'm right I won't give in without a fight
And I can take the words they throw at me
For none of them could know that we had something
Very few will ever find their whole life through
I wouldn't change a single day
Although the price I have to pay is solitudine
The loneliness is tearing me apart, it tears me up
It pulls me down and then it wraps around my heart
Does he remember all he said to me?