this is my life….

Everyone has got a secret side
One thing packed up through a …
You think you know me
But I’m changing all the time
Cause if I wanna be sweet, if I wanna be wild
If I wanna cry like a child
If I pick up the world, it’s a ball in my hand
I guess that’s just who I am

This is me, can’t ignore it
Reaching out, breaking free
Trust in me, falling forward
Yeah, I’m just going for it
This is me

Sometimes life is a confusing thing
When I talk it seems like no one’s listening
Try to be an angel, but I just can’t find my wings
If I wanna be sweet, but I wanna be wild
And I wanna ride my own style
So I’ll make a mistake, and I’ll do it again
But I’ll do it the best I can

More than what you see
Finding out who I can be

This is me, can’t ignore it
Breaking free
Falling forward
Yeah, I’m just going for it
This is me

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I’ve done things that haven’t occurred yet
and things that they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my sons
I’m sorry for the fact that I’m not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there

Because I’m in the streets like everyday
I’m sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I’m so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there’s some problems
And I’m not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can’t apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I’m sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
I’m sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn’t agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief

I’m sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry that your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the feds came and took me away

I understand that there’s some problems
And I’m not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can’t apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She’s just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn’t anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame

Even though the blame’s on you
Even though the blame’s on you
Even though the blame’s on you
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

        ‘nyways here we go after n d long journey n d o.r here we go in pedia ward where it seems to be  everyday is a bloodsheeding day,internal hemorrhage,nosebleed and NPO for 8 hours,’nyways its a great experience.gotta have nausea n vomiting making my soapie n finding problems ’bout my patient,n after all i was stranded in making evaluation,and im so tired n "ineffective  airway clearance r/t mucous secretions 2′ pneumonia" mao intawn na akong nsg.diagnosis pirmi,magkadugo pirmi ang show.watta life!!!!!!!.damn!i was about to pick my scattered broken brain/head in the floor at floor 3 n pedia when my timetappings of IVF doesn’t timing in every hour n minutes while my computations was totally perfect.lol! flushing ang show! when mag chika galor ang mga pipz n d c.i s coming automatic scattered ang show…

one thing is for sure after  my duty n pedia ward there will be no space for new msgs n making discharge plan of my jot down notes ….hehhhehee,hahaiz!