stupid mistake!
around 10 o’clock in the evening: after our duty.people do tap my back inorder to give relief:and other said "ok ra na",people do always try or have been experienced dr most embarrasing moment in their life: well i really do! d biggest and stupid mistake i’ve done!thinking of those moments makes me cry: it ruins my life and my ambition.i packed my things and go home quickly cuz i dont want people see me,i hate the stare,i hate myself,i’ve bring dishonor to myself and to the people around,i cant forgive myself of what i did! careless one!!!!!!!. i was staring blankly ahead along the hallway and dont even noticed i was already on the street: i quickly hired a taxi inorder to go home and dont even tell d driver where to go,i never heard what he’s talking, i was out of my mind then.until he open d light and said "are you okay miss"? : i was so disappointed: i thought i already told him my destination: and what d heck! i was about to go when he call me and said: " miss plete nimo"! i felt embarrassed! damn! i guess theres something wrong with my mind! feels like a nervous bleeding in my brain:I have to block my thoughts so I don’t lose my head .They crawl in like a cockroach!An ounce of peace i want!
i hate it! i really do! i wish dat ds s only just a dream, a story or a movie…but its not! its real lol!: whatever i do: i always end up and realize that ds s real, what had happened is real; i often denied to myself. what shud i do?!!! escape reality?????!!!!! how?????!!!!! i cant think anymore. so ds z it! its happening! i have nothing to do: but to accept my fault! its my fault and i knew it!
ei: i dont need advice..!!!!! maybe this is the worst day happened in my life. i never forget this in my entire life!
im quitting! shame on myself! how can i correct my life now? maybe i cant manage it! i cant!
i felt down..and im depressed totally depressed.leave me alone people.!!!! i dont want to see you all.shall i proceed or not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????? i dont know…
every step that i take is another mistake!
wwwwaaaaahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhahaha……..
wwwaaaaajhhhhhhhh………………wwwwaaaaahhhhh………
i wanna shout out loud!!!!!!! i wanna say sorry: but what can sorry do?>???? tell me??? its better not to say so; i guess! it is being done already ,so whats the use??? ryt??
accept the cosequences: and i already knew it!
hate mhe with every fiber of your being! and i accept it!Hate me today Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I did for you!
