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Somewhere between the procrastination and the homework.
The incessant forwards and the new friendships. The nasty
dorm food and the calls home complaining about roommates &
lovers…
Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends and
the "I miss you’s", the "I love you’s", and the "I can’t
wait to see you again’s". Somewhere between all of the
changing & growing…
Somewhere between the classes and the skipping classes,
between the studying for tests, and the pretending to
study for tests, and the downright not studying for
tests…
I forgot. I forgot what it was like to be in high school.
I forgot what it meant to cry. I forgot that pretending to
be happy doesn’t make you happy. And that pretending to
be smart doesn’t make you smart.
I forgot that you can’t just forget the past. I forgot
that you can’t control falling in love, and that you can’t
make yourself fall in love.
I learned that I can love. I learned that good food
doesn’t really seem great until you can’t have it anymore.
I noticed that I get along better with my mom now than
ever before. And that wasn’t because she changed, but
because I changed.
I learned that going to university means making choices I
learned that it’s okay to mess up, it’s okay to ask for
help, and it’s okay to feel like crap.
I learned that sometimes the things you want most, you
just can’t have. I learned that the greatest thing about
university weren’t the parties, or the drinking, or the
hook-ups… It’s the chances. Taking the chances, and then
making the most of them.
I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget
about are the things which we most need to talk about. I
learned that once you get to university, things don’t
automatically get better… it’s what you make of them.
I learned that letters from friends are the most important
thing, and that sending cards to your friends makes you
feel better. I learned that friendships can change and
it’s ok for it to change, and as long as you both accept
these changes, you can still manage to be closer than
ever.
But, basically, I just learned that my friends, Both old
and new, Are the most important people to me in the world
And without them, I wouldn’t be who I am today. So this is
a thank you to all of my friends For always being there
So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin’ round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world
Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bassline strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can’t talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don’t ask me how don’t ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
In this kaleidoscope world
I got bored so here it goes…
Have You Ever…
1) smoked a cigar: nope,and i hate it.
2) crashed a friend’s car: nope
3)stolen a car : nope
4) been dumped : yup!
5) been fired : not yet
6)been in a fist fight :yup! my mortal enemy during my elem.
7) snuck out of my parent’s house :nope
had feelings for someone who didnt have them back : yup!
9)been arrested :nope
10)made out with a stranger : nope
11)gone on a blind date :nope
12) lied to a friend : yup,hahaha.
13)had a crush on a teacher : yup!hehehe.
14)cheated on a bf/gf : nope!
15)been to in other places outside cebu : yup!
16)skipped school : many times (he.he.)duty:lots of extensions.
17)slept with a classmates house : yup!groupworks and studies,projects etc.
18)seen someone die :yup!during duty hours.i cant sleep dat nyt.
19)had a crush on one of your friends: yup!
20)been to Canada : nope,hopefully 5 years from now.
21)been to Mexico : nope,hopefully 3 years from now.
22)been on a plane :how i wish.
23)seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show : yup!
24)thrown up in a bar : nope.
25)purposely set a part of myself on fire : nope.
26)been snowboarding/skiing :nope
27)been moshing at a concert :nope
28)had real feelings for someone who didn’t loves u back : yup, and hopefully he loves me too..(illusions)
29)been in an abusive relationship : maybe.
30)taken painkillers : nope.
31)love someone or miss someone right now : yuppy!
32)laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by :always.
32)made a snow angel : nope!
33)had a tea party :yup.
34)flown a kite :when i was young
35)built a sand castle : nope, only a small house.
36)gone puddle jumping :nope,and i won’t try.
37)played dress up :nope.i have no idea
38)jumped into a pile of leaves :yeah..
39)gone sledding :yeah
40)cheated while playing a game :yup.
41)been lonely : always
42)fallen asleep at work/school :yup,when i tired havin’ duty.
43)used a fake id :almost
44)watched the sunset : yup,very nice.
45)felt an earthquake :not yet
46)touched a snake : yup
47)slept beneath the stars :yup
48) been tickled:yup
49) been robbed:nope
50) been misunderstood:maybe always
51) petted a reindeer/goat:yup.hehehe
52) won a contest:during my highschool days
53) run a red light:yup hahaha its very funny
54) been suspended from school:yup my highschool days
55) been in a car accident:nope cuz im a good rider.
56) had braces:nope i dont like it.
57) felt like an outcast:sometimes
58) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night:heheh with my cousins
59) had deja vu: nope
60) danced in the moonlight : in my dreams
61) hated the way you look: yes very much
62) witnessed a crime: not yet
63) pole danced:nope
64) questioned your heart:yup always
65) been obsessed with post-it notes:yup.
66) squished barefoot through the mud: yes,i tried it.it sucks u know
67) been lost: yes in a crowded areas here in city.
68) been to the opposite side of the country:not yet,hopefuly.
69) swam in the ocean: nope
70) felt like dying: yes.esp.when i am with a terror c.i and cant make my soapie.and cant answer her questions.hahahaha
71) cried yourself to sleep: yup it happened last week.
72) played cops and robbers: yup.i enjoy my childhood days. i used to be a boyish gurl u know.
73) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers: yeah i love it.
74) sung karaoke: yup,with my cousins,always. usually when theres no class.
75) paid for a meal with only coins:yup.i am a student, nagigipit dn.hahahaah.
76) done something you told yourself you wouldn’t: yup,always.
75) made prank phone calls when you were younger:yup.
77) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your
nose: yup.i am a silly gurl.
78) danced in the rain: yup, its very cool. try it.
79) written a letter to Santa Claus: yup, when our teacher in elem.told us to do so.
80) watched the sun set/rise with someone you care about: with my cousins.
81) blown bubbles: yuppy, its fun.
82) made a bonfire on the beach: not yet,only a campfire.
(.) crashed a party: i forgot.
(.) gone rollerblading/rollerskating: i never tried,i am afraid.
(.) had a wish come true: yup,always cuz i believe in God.
(.) worn pearls: yup.always.
(.) jumped off a bridge: yupppy.though scared but i really do.
(.) told a complete stranger you loved them: nope.
(.) sang in the shower: yup,always.
66) have a little black dress:yup,very cute.
65) had a dream that you married someone: sometimes.
66) glued your hand to something:yes
67) got your tongue stuck to something cold: yes.
68) kissed a fish:hahaha,funny ryt but i did it.
69) worn the opposite sexes clothes:yes..esp.long shorts.
70) been a cheerleader: nope.
71) been a dancer: yeah a ballet dancerwhen i was a kinder garten
72) sat on a roof top:yeah i always love it.
73) screamed at the top of your lungs: yesss..hahaha
74) done a one-handed cartwheel:i never tried.
75) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours:nope only 4 hours.
76) stayed up all night:yup,when we have our duty ay nyt 10-6am.its kinda tired.
77) pick and ate an apple right off the tree: not yet.
78) climbed a tree: always..i love it.
79) had a tree house:during childhood days with playmates
80) are scared to watch scary movies but love them: yeah,i love it.
81) believe in ghosts: maybe,when my goosebumps goes out.
82) have more then 30 pairs of shoes:nope,im not particular to shoes.
83) worn a really crazy outfit to school just to see what
others say: yup,and its funny,during my highchool days,we were crazy then.
84) played ding-dong-ditch: yuppy.its cool.
85) played truth or dare:yup during ou duty hours in hospital
86) played spin the bottle: yup during duty hours when we have nothin’better to do.
87) been pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on:yes,last suumer,with my cousins.
88) broken a bone:oohhh…i never tried.
89) been easily amused: yup.
90) caught a fish then ate it: yup, when i was 9 years old.
91) caught a butterfly: yup,its very interesting.
92) laughed so hard you cried: yes ..stupid ryt?
93) cried so hard you laughed: yes and i am so stupid
94) mooned/flashed someone: yes last week.
95) had someone moon/flash you:yes last week.
96) cheated on a test: yes.like looking my classmates answers. haha
97) forgotten someone’s name :yes when i have dementia.hahaha
98) slept naked: nope i haven’t try it.it sucks.
99) French braided someone’s hair: yes.
100) grown a beard??: i have it,a little.
you’re the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you’re the one that i can’t wait to see
with you here by my side i’m in ecstasy
i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see
your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside
every time i hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we’ve been through
in my mind i can’t believe it’s true
but in my heart the reality is you
before i meet you
i never knew what it was like to look at someone
and smile for no reason
secretly your the only thing
that lifts me up and make me smile when im sad
i’ll always love you: "my pillow" waahhahahaha…
…i really love it!
around 10 o’clock in the evening: after our duty.people do tap my back inorder to give relief:and other said "ok ra na",people do always try or have been experienced dr most embarrasing moment in their life: well i really do! d biggest and stupid mistake i’ve done!thinking of those moments makes me cry: it ruins my life and my ambition.i packed my things and go home quickly cuz i dont want people see me,i hate the stare,i hate myself,i’ve bring dishonor to myself and to the people around,i cant forgive myself of what i did! careless one!!!!!!!. i was staring blankly ahead along the hallway and dont even noticed i was already on the street: i quickly hired a taxi inorder to go home and dont even tell d driver where to go,i never heard what he’s talking, i was out of my mind then.until he open d light and said "are you okay miss"? : i was so disappointed: i thought i already told him my destination: and what d heck! i was about to go when he call me and said: " miss plete nimo"! i felt embarrassed! damn! i guess theres something wrong with my mind! feels like a nervous bleeding in my brain:I have to block my thoughts so I don’t lose my head .They crawl in like a cockroach!An ounce of peace i want!
i hate it! i really do! i wish dat ds s only just a dream, a story or a movie…but its not! its real lol!: whatever i do: i always end up and realize that ds s real, what had happened is real; i often denied to myself. what shud i do?!!! escape reality?????!!!!! how?????!!!!! i cant think anymore. so ds z it! its happening! i have nothing to do: but to accept my fault! its my fault and i knew it!
ei: i dont need advice..!!!!! maybe this is the worst day happened in my life. i never forget this in my entire life!
im quitting! shame on myself! how can i correct my life now? maybe i cant manage it! i cant!
i felt down..and im depressed totally depressed.leave me alone people.!!!! i dont want to see you all.shall i proceed or not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????? i dont know…
every step that i take is another mistake!
wwwwaaaaahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhahaha……..
wwwaaaaajhhhhhhhh………………wwwwaaaaahhhhh………
i wanna shout out loud!!!!!!! i wanna say sorry: but what can sorry do?>???? tell me??? its better not to say so; i guess! it is being done already ,so whats the use??? ryt??
accept the cosequences: and i already knew it!
hate mhe with every fiber of your being! and i accept it!Hate me today Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I did for you!
I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired so much more aware
I’ve becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired so much more aware
I’ve becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired so much more aware
I’ve becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
everytime u enter into d classroom and starts ur quick discussion and then "gisapot" na d i ka all the way and then all of my classmates was shocked when u suddenly say: get one-4th sheet of paper.its funny when i was looking for a paper and no one gives mhe and my pen was out of ink.(he!).a lesson for me.and trying to google my mind if there are some stock-up knowledge left and there’s none (poor mhe,!) and honestly i was not prepared!
all the while i got 1 out of ten(poor souls according to her)and only one passed i think, anyways that was her first surprise test, a good surprise,we are all surprised then! and i thank God its weekend but u know what,bec. i studied ds course for me :week never ends! hehehe(ako ra na ha! hehehhehehhehe)…
