this is my life….

how can u love someone u have never seen with a feeling so passionate that it makes ur heart skip a beat at the  sound of his voice?how can u feel of his hands on u,wen he has never touched u? a love with such passion that life could have never known it in ur wildest dreams,or if it could be possible wud u turn it away in fear that it could not be real for you have never known such a love. for this love i wud take the chance of heartbreak.for i have known a lifetime of heartbreak and heartbreak in itself is of in temporary nature if we allow it to be.

As the wind blows by
A silent tear is shed
No one knows it happens
Only the girl who shed it
She sits alone in her room
And listens to the rain fall outside
She wishes she were free of pain
Instead she hides alone in her head
Talking to no one but her teddy
Remembering how life used to be
Thinking about her parents
Before they went away
She remembers her mothers’ smile
And the way her father laughed
As she reminisces, she holds her teddy tight
She stares out the window
As the lightening flashes in the sky
She remembers that day
Her parents disappeared
She remembers like it were just today
They left right after dinner
And said they’d be right back
She thought nothing of it
They did it all the time
She’d have put up a huge fight
If she’d known their fate for that night
She waited up for hours
At midnight she got scared
So she ran right next-door
To the friend she’s had for years
She fell asleep by accident
And awoke to a horrible surprise
A knock at the front door
Changed her life forever
The cop said he was sorry
But mom and dad were dead
A drunk driver had hit them
And killed them both on the spot
She stood there for 20 minutes
Unmovable and silent
Then she fell down to her knees
And cried her little eyes out
She holds her teddy close
And lays down on her bed
“It’s just another lonely day,” she says
And she cries herself to sleep

Each day begins with simple choice, Get up or stay in bed; Shower,  coffee,  breakfast,  smoke  — All choices from the head. We make a choice to go to work, To earn our daily bread; We choose to do our very best, Or just slide by instead. Our sense of self comes into play When we choose to wed; We make a choice to follow our hearts, Or follow what others have said. And when we find our lives are wrong, Each day is faced with dread; We choose to stay or choose to go Where angels fear to tread. Our lives might end up nothing more Than trying to get ahead; Till sometime hence we realize How fast the years have sped. The path we take from day to day Can either be followed or led; Our lives are lines of choices made, From birth until we’re dead. —

End Of The Line

All alone I wait for you
As darkness fills this room
I don’t know why you ain’t called

Little things you used to do
There no longer part of you
Seems you left them all behind

Well I can’t believe what I’m going through
This thing it, just ain’t right
Your selfish ways, how you carry on
Somethings you just can’t hide

(If you want me to go) Then Say It
(Want me to stay) Then show it
(Don’t be afraid) Oh don’t break this heart of mine
Now’s the time, If I’m right then we’ve come to the end of the line
So Say It
(Want me to stay) Then show it
(Don’t be afraid) Oh don’t break this heart of mine
Now’s the time, If I’m right then we’ve come to the end of the line
Ooh Ooh
Oh Yeah

Seems like I can’t do you right
All I do or say is wrong
All the smallest thing critisised

I deserve some damn respect
Nothing more and nothing less
Don’t pretend everythings fine

Don’t hold it back if its in your heart
Stand up and be a man
Can’t read your mind
So I just say aloud
I’m trying to understand

(If you want me to go) Then Say It
(Want me to stay) Then show it
(Don’t be afraid) Oh don’t break this heart of mine
Now’s the time, If I’m right then we’ve come to the end of the line
So Say It
(Want me to stay) Then show it
(Don’t be afraid) Oh don’t break this heart of mine
Now’s the time, If I’m right then we’ve come to the end of the line

Even though you’ve been doing me wrong I still care
Do you think that by treating me cruel that somehow I’ll disappear?
Baby I love you too much just to walk away
Don’t make me hate you
Baby you’ve got to be
Straight

(If you want me to go) Then Say It
(Want me to stay) Don’t be afraid baby show it
(Don’t be afraid) Don’t be afraid oh don’t break this heart of mine
Now’s the time, If I’m right then we’ve come to the end of the line
Ooh Oooh
(Want me to stay) Oh baby show it
(Don’t be afraid) Don’t be afraid oh don’t break this heart of mine
Now’s the time, If I’m right then we’ve come to the end of the line

Come to the end of the line (Oooh Oooh)
We’ve come to the end of the line
Come to the end of the line (Oh baby)
We’ve come to the end of the line (line)
Come to the end of the line
We’ve come to the end of the line
Come to the end of the line (line)
We’ve come to the end of the line (oooh oooh)
Come to the end of the line (oh the end of the line)

We’ve come to the end of the line

Quiz myself:

(x)means checked.

I got bored so here it goes…

Have You Ever…
1) smoked a cigar: nope
2) crashed a friend’s car: nope
3)stolen a car : nope
4) been dumped : yup!
5) been fired : not yet
6)been in a fist fight :yup!
7) snuck out of my parent’s house :nope
had feelings for someone who didnt have them back : yup!
9)been arrested :nope
10)made out with a stranger : nope
11)gone on a blind date :nope
12) lied to a friend : yup!
13)had a crush on a teacher : yup!
14)cheated on a bf/gf : nope!
15)been to in other places outside cebu : yup!
16)skipped school : many times (he.he.)
17)slept with a classmates house : yup!
18)seen someone die :yup!during duty hours.
19)had a crush on one of your friends: yup!
20)been to Canada : nope,hopefully 5 years from now.
21)been to Mexico : nope,hopefully 3 years from now.
22)been on a plane :how i wish.
23)seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show : yup!
24)thrown up in a bar : nope.
25)purposely set a part of myself on fire : nope.
26)been snowboarding/skiing :nope
27)been moshing at a concert :nope
28)had real feelings for someone  who didn’t loves u back : yup, and hopefully he loves me too..(illusions)
29)been in an abusive relationship : maybe.
30)taken painkillers : nope.
31)love someone or miss someone right now : yuppy!
32)laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by :always.
32)made a snow angel : nope!
33)had a tea party :nope
34)flown a kite :when i was young
35)built a sand castle : nope, only a small house.
36)gone puddle jumping :nope,and i won’t try.
37)played dress up :nope.i have no idea
38)jumped into a pile of leaves :yeah..
39)gone sledding :yeah
40)cheated while playing a game :yup.
41)been lonely : always
42)fallen asleep at work/school :yup
43)used a fake id :almost
44)watched the sunset : yup,very nice.
45)felt an earthquake :not yet
46)touched a snake : yup
47)slept beneath the stars :yup
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn’t
(x) made prank phone calls when you were younger
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your
nose
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) watched the sun set/rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
( ) gone rollerblading/rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
( ) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your tongue stuck to something cold
(x) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
( ) been a dancer
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies but love them
( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really crazy outfit to school just to see what
others say
( ) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played truth or dare
( ) played spin the bottle
(x) been pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone’s name
(x) slept naked
( ) French braided someone’s hair
(x) grown a beard??

well…last saturday was our midterm examination….

again im failed.but i dont know why….i did my best but i guess my best wasn’t good enough…but honestly i did the worst thing in which i know that it is not good,for the first time in my life i never knew i can do it,but maybe thats d only way,but promise i hope i can never do it again.dats d most sinful thing i’ve done in my whole life on here earth…im so sorry.

i have lots to say but im tired…

very tired….im happy but sad….

ok ra ko….?????

sure ko…?????

i don’t think so…?///

gutom ra siguro ko ie….he! he!

the real me is….
(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn’t give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need
hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)- plain things you don’t understand
(Y)ells when you won’t listen and….
(Z)aps you back to reality…